I feel a little bit like King Canute trying to force back the sea – despite my best efforts at keeping my children locked up in tower and insulated from the insidious pressures of the outside world there are distinct signs that the outside world is forcing its way in and making them grow [...]
It is funny what things get to – engage brain, engage logic and yet still it is the little things that can undermine hard fought invulnerability.
Today I am starting to sort through our baby clothes, taking bags down from the attic and getting ready to send a package of small, loved things [...]
How come evolution hasn’t kicked in sorted out the fact that no matter how you look at it, the way we humans reproduce is just overly complicated. Surely sometime around the time we started to walk upright some small changes could have been made to how we reproduce?
Let’s think about conception – not [...]
For some women the idea of blooming during pregnancy is beyond their comprehension – for them pregnancy is characterised by incredible, all consuming sickness, the loss of a significant proportion of their body weight and the risks associated with dehydration.
And that is just the physical side.
Mentally imagine dealing with the consequences of [...]
I realised that when I got pregnant earlier in the summer I had done my usual thing of focusing on the immediate challenge, get pregnant, and not so much on what would actually happen if I did get pregnant. As we continue to try to get pregnant again I am trying to think long [...]
Feeling a bit down. Actually make that a lot down.
Another month passes.
Another month and another time that I have managed to get pregnant but not stay pregnant. Because obviously the important thing is to stay pregnant so you can actually BE pregnant.
The trouble with us both being so [...]
Yes yes yes I understand that there needs to be drama and all that but seriously does every portrayal of pregnancy and birth need to be so dramatic.
Even when the pregnancy is not pivotal to the story there has to be a twist or trouble that means you never end up with [...]
Life can be an absolute beast when it thinks about it.
Tonight I am mostly rejoicing in the news that my sister is pregnant, that I’m going to be an aunt, that after all the trying she is going to be a mother, that they are going to be a family. And I’m [...]
What I hadn’t realised about miscarriage is that there isn’t a button that you click and suddenly everything is erased.
Once you’ve gone through the physical process you then have to deal with the practical side.
You have to cancel the appointments you had made, tell the few people you had confided [...]