For a short while this week life changed.
For a short but wonderful time I was pregnant again – able to dream about how our family was going to grow, to dream about moving on from the hiatus of this last year and to count my blessings.
Sadly it didn’t last – just as I began to really hope (and had bought pregnancy vitamins) everything fell apart and the dream died. All I have to remind me that it was real and not a figment of my imagination are some photos of pregnancy tests on my phone…
Perhaps it would have been better to not have allowed myself to hope but 18 months into this process of trying I know my cycles better than the back of my hand and know when something is different. Sadly also to know when things are going wrong.
I know that in some ways it is a positive thing that I can get pregnant – I just really, desperately wanted to stay pregnant.
Perhaps next month but realistically probably not.
So sorry to hear the news. I hope you’re taking it easy and getting the professional support you need for next time.
how frustrating. You make a good point though that after 18 months you are so finely tuned to the workings of your own body that it is hard not to get excited when you know something has changed – I can picture that adrenelin rush when you first acknowledge the pregnancy and also the gaping hole you feel again the second you realise you are no longer pregnant; things would be easier to bare if you weren’t so tuned to it.
Big hugs H.
((((hugs))))
So sorry for you. Wishing you all the best for the next time.
Hold on to the fact you can conceieve – it will work out.
Thank you – I hope so just struggling a little to pull myself back up after this
that should have said conceive.
Brings back memories of going through this with my wife – very traumatic for both of us, each in our own way. Try to do something special together, even just a walk somewhere new. It helps. All the best for now.
Just some hugs and lots of good wishes, that’s all. Be kind to yourself this weekend xx
Ach
Oh, more and more love. This is too long and it is not fair
That’s so sad! So know how you feel! Be kind to yourself and take time to grieve, before you try to move on. xx
Oh lovey, sending hugs and gin, love and thoughts xxx
Oh Hannah, life can be so horribly unfair.
J x
Oh Hannah, life can be so horribly unfair.
I am so terribly sorry
J x
I’m so sorry, these things are so unexplainable and so unfair x
I’m so very sorry. Huge hugs; I’m thinking of you xx
I’m so sorry, sending hugs xx
Oh no I’m so very very sorry to read this. Sending much love xx
Oh sweetie, how frustrating and deeply deeply saddening. Hope you are being kind to yourself xxxx
Have you thought about going to see DrS at the miscarriage clinic? Maybe some steroids or blood thinners may help make it a sticky xxx
I admire your strength and courage. As someone who cannot have kids, I can somewhat understand the struggle. Keep strong!
Sarah Allen
(my creative writing blog)
Don’t give up sweety, life has a weird way of working. It seems the more you want for something the further away it gets! Fingers crossed it will happen xx
So sorry to hear this
Sending hugs & hope things have a happier outcome next time xxx
Very. Bug. Hug. x
That should have been BIG, obviously…
Found you through the Britmums finalists list (congratulations!) and am so sorry to read of your sad news.
I’m so so sorry. Big virtual hug.
Really sad to read this post. X x
I’m so sorry. I know even nine days later you’ve already shifted to a different place but I ache for you reading this.
So sorry.