Most of the time I can sit at my computer and the words flow from my fingers – writing for this blog is instinctive. I think my posts all over the place, lying in the bath, sitting on the train and they gradually form somewhere in the recesses of my mind. When I come to write them usually they tip tap onto the page more or less effortlessly.
Except at the moment I am finding it hard to write. I’m finding it hard to get things set down
There is an awful lot going on at the moment which doesn’t help – work is getting crazy again and Mr Muddling was away all of last week and is away all of this week. It’s not that I mind being on my own, it has it’s attractions, but for some reason it does seem to dull the creativity.
The biggest problem is that there is so much I can’t talk about going on – as always, the thing at the front of your mind that You Must Not Mention is all that you can think about!
The baby thing preys on my mind. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know which things I should be doing to increase the chances and I’m not even sure if I have the emotional energy to go on. I had assumed that I would be pregnant again by now – I’m not and it seems like an awfully distant possibility. I could write every day about where I am with this but who would want to read that?
My to do list is also out of control – I want to sort out my bedroom but I can’t do that during the week because Bigger has taken up residence in my bed. The upstairs hallway needs sorting, the clutter is gradually coming back and I want to get everything finished and sorted. Our builder has gone missing and hasn’t come back to finish the things that need finishing so we are in a sort of house limbo – sort of finished but sort of not.
So winge winge winge and a blog post is done – better get back to doing all the other things that I need to do.
just a gentle ((())) for you, my dear. I hope that things start flowing.
Funny enough writing that seemed to help – just hate when I have to self edit all the good stuff out!
Sometimes, if I know my thoughts just aren’t suitable blog material, I’ll write the post anyway and save it in draft form with the title DO NOT PRESS PUBLISH. Just writing it down, knowing it’s safe from anyone ever reading it/being hurt by it etc is enough to sort it all out in my head. Maybe you could try that?
Good point – I can still write it just not upload it onto here and risk accidentally publishing – maybe one day I can do a week of the posts I didn’t dare publish?
I have the same problem, when you mind is full of all this other stuff, it can be so hard to find the inspiration to write and what you do want to write or express either cant be said or no one wants to hear it. Give yourself a break, take a step back and let it come.
Thank you – am just going to write it and then edit if I need to rather than self edit everything up front and hopefully not bore people too much
I’m really glad that I read this tonight. I am struggling to write anything at the moment and have felt like I’m the only one who is not in the ‘flow’. I do hope your writers block clears, but thank you for being honest and giving me a bit of comfort.
Writers block is the worst – interestingly writing about not writing seemed to help it!