I’m not expecting to win for the simple reason that I haven’t told my family and friends that I write this blog which makes reaching out to the papers as some other finalists have done feel rather impossible.
Which is not to say that I’m not really, really tempted to out myself and give myself a chance of being in the running. To be honest I have dithered about telling people, I’ve even mentioned in passing to some friends that I write a blog. And then I’ve backed right off and hidden it away again.
Deciding to not reveal this blog wasn’t a conscious decision when I started out.
Initially I was being discrete because I didn’t want work to pick up on it (I’m still not sure I would want them to read this – I like my compartments staying separate).
Gradually it became a place that I was very honest about what was happening to me and able to lay it all out – in real life I found it harder to expose my weaknesses and vulnerabilities and to explain to friends and family just how horrid things were with my pregnancy.
Once Babygirl safely arrived and a whole new set of issues arrived I realised that I could continue to be honest and perhaps that laying it out frankly might help someone else going through the same issues. It turned out I got a huge amount of support and love from my bloggy friends and that there were other people who had been there, done that and got the t-shirt and who were more than ready to help me through.
So here I am, fiercely competitive by nature, yet holding back from waving a big flag, getting a bumper sticker and telling the world about my blog.
Not because I am not proud of it – I am and I’m utterly chuffed I got this far in the competition, but because being away from the view of those closest to me means I can be incredibly frank and that helps me work though things and hopefully might help someone else in the future going through those things.
In short, please consider voting for me if you like what I do, but first go and make sure you look at the others in this category, our experiences are diverse and different but we are all alike in some ways, we’re blogging as we go through this first year with our babies.