Blah blah blah best start for your baby.
Blah blah blah helps you regain your pre-preggy body (this is utter rubbish by the way, instead you get an extra layer of fat above your hips in case you can’t keep producing milk… as if famine is really likely in this day and age).
Blah blah blah bonding (because we all know how that went around here last time).
Blah blah blah keep on doing it or you’ll be a bad Mummy.
I know all the reasons and the research because why else would I have pumped like a milch cow for so long.
I consider myself committed to breastfeeding, committed to doing the right thing and yet at nearly 7 months in, with the prospect of moving to a much fuller on job in August, I want to start to mix feed. I want to start to back quietly away from the all encompassing nature of breastfeeding exclusively. And most importantly, with a baby that isn’t able to drink cows milk, I want to not have to pump even more than I already do so she can have milk on her cereal.
Because there really is a point at which you have to say ‘I can’t do this anymore’ – that I’m not able to do it all and I need a break.
And quite frankly I think I’m getting there.
But Babygirl and her issues with cows milk is making is really very hard to do.
It appears that its a trial and error approach to finding out what might make her less unhappy (for this read vomiting it all back up, horror nappies and nasty eczema) – all of which suggests that if I can I should carry on breastfeeding because at least, so long as I steer clear of dairy, she’s ok.
But I don’t think I can – I need to find another alternative, something else she can drink, can have on her cereal and we can use for cooking because whilst I know breastfeeding is best, for us, there is a point coming up when, and you can call me a bad Mummy for doing this, where I have to step away from this.
I’m not even considering giving up entirely, just day feeds.
Yet I’m still angst ridden and feeling guilty.
So I feel trapped between knowing what is the absolute best for Babygirl and what is the practical best for the two of us.
Is there an easy route through this?