I’m quite proud of my little blog. I can’t believe I’ve been doing this for nearly a year and that actually there are people out there reading it and enjoying what I write and connecting with me about these posts.
But it took me a very long time to share with anyone that I do this – that I have an active virtual life alongside my real one.
In fact when I mentioned it to Mr Muddling it was an offhand remark that he mostly ignored. And he’s only had a quick squizz around here a couple of times (and never left a comment). But he has been rather taken by the Pancake Fun and the Chocolate Tasting and the fact I’ve made it into the Tots100.
So much so that I spent time at the weekend on eggshells as he dropped into conversation that we’d done some of these fun things as part of my Mummy life.
And I realised that I wasn’t sure I wanted him to tell people about my blog. I mean not even my best friend knows about it and I share everything with her – she knew about my pregnancies before everyone else, she knows some of my shameful secrets and we’ve even shared a bed!
Its not that I’m ashamed of it but that I’m not sure how people outside the blogging community view blogs – are we seen as internet nutters, wierdos with friends, egomaniacs wittering into the ether?
And will they like what they read on here?
Have I written anything that isn’t sufficiently opaque to make the characters recognisable?
Have I shared too much detail?
Might something offend someone?
Would knowing they might read this mean that I’d have to self edit differently?
Is it time to out myself as a blogger or better to stay hidden away and not share that I do this?